The past

Assalamualaikum semua ;) wow its aldy th 3rd week of school . Alhamdulilah so far school been good !! Anyway chelsea lost to ManU yesterday 3-2 with chelsea having 9 men !!! Torres red card !! Sodih bird bird ! And yearh went to Bugis on saturday afternoon . Going there again to get a bag ;) and and i did make lasagna beef . Suppose to be chicken bcause th purpose i make it is fr Gula Melaka ! But when he told me he is going out with his family terus sedih hancur punah seh harapan . But hide my feelings and made beef one instead (he dont really eat beef) . So i got this idea of making a lasagna into cupcakes ! Heeh ! Tried it and woow it look cute !!! Heeh ! Wanee love it . And just as i thought of giving a try to Gula melaka , he said he wanted to try it so i give it to him ;) met him after his isyak prayer at compass . He look sad ;( then got to knw just knw that his sister love my lasagna so so much !! Both his sisters pula turh sampai minta recipes !! First was his mum that really find it naice when i gave them th nutella spread cupcakes even tried to bake it during hari raya haji ! Now his sisters compliment ! Alahai bangga semenit can ! Heeh xD Actually i was thinking to open a blogshop that sells cakes, brownies and etc . But i scared tak laku , and i will be very busy ! Huh ! But nevermind , shall make it as my passion and interest ;) shall try macaroon this weekend insha'Allah . Harap menjadi :D
Assalamualaikum everyone !! Last friday was hari raya haji and as usual my mum would cook plenty of yummy food !! I didnt really get to help her bcause was quite busy . So woke up and my uncle came while i was brushing my teeth so i ddint really bathe . Shhhh ! One by one my dad side family came . Keycoh keycoh as usual . They went back at 1 . And i was about to rest when mum ask me and Wanee to go Hougang Mall to buy stuff . Alahai , dah luh belum makan , penat pula turh but we still went there . Went to nenek house after asar prayer and Nasi Ambeng is waiting fr me there !! Talk , chillchill and eat with cousins there !! Entertain dorang semua .heheh !! Am bless to have such keycohzx and caring relative and family ♥♥ . Went back home early . And ohh my long top and red pullover have arrived . Yay !! Mum and dad went to jaybee to settle our kitchen there and they sleep over there too leaving me and my sister and grandparents here in singapore . As a result , i am hungary in th middle of th nightz mamzx !! Going to make chicken lasagna later ;) and yearp went to Bugis with Wanee and bought 2 pants . One high waist and th other is brown tight pants and its super tight . Wanted to make nutella moltme lava cake but Wanee said do that next time and ask me to do lasagna first so here i am going to make it later ;) Ohh yeah , i miss my bunny ! Feel like dah lama tak jumpa dia padahal last meetup was thursday . Trying to make puisi fr him ni . Kupejam mata , bayangmu menjelma . Wajahmu menjadi tatapanku , Matamu membuatku tenggelam jauh , Diri diselubungi rindu dikala malam datang bertamu . Kau hadir selembut bayu , Menyapaku dengan keikhlasan hatimu , Tanpa dipinta tanpa diduga , Tanpa kusangka kau yang kucinta .
May Peace Be Upon everyone ;) had th best day ever yesterday 25/10 :) start off with school first . I was fasting Arafah and i didnt have my sahur so school start at 10.10am and first lesson was food processing . It was more of th calculation and Lina tan keep askjng us questions -.- . Was having break and accamponied them to buy food . And ard 12.35pn meet Wanee to do Zuhr prayer . It was actually th first time we pray together i school . Alhamdulilah we waited fr zuhr and on time fr class ;) pharmacology was super sleepy seh !!! I really want to sleep . Record lecture and oopen my eyes but my mind all shutting !! Last lesson was food presevation . Dangerous to sit in front bcause Lina Tan will keep asking questions !! Stress yknw !!!! After school did my asr before heading to Compass to meet Gula Melaka bcause we decided to breakfast at Punggol together . Waited fr him till 6.34pm in th library . Super shagged and tired!!! He came and i gave him th no mood face bcause like rrally tired . Bused to Punggol and dah azan so he rushed to cheers to get drinks first . Wakked to have our breakfast at Popeyes . Keh it was my first time going Punggol Popeyes so a bit jakun !! Guess who we saw ?? We saw Isaac seh !! Small world gytu ! And me and him talk crapz while queing to buy our food !! I like th mash potato theere and th scones !! But th ayam nt that naice uh ! Talk talk and eat and have fun ;) then we decided to walk to th park . Jalan jalan dan jalan till we stop somewhere which i have no idea where is it . He asked me to sit , use earpiece and close my eyes and sleep . Was super curious as to why he ask me to do thag eh :/ then he wake me up and asked me go in front .and thenn ..... he so call.propose me to be his girlf . Ya Allah ya tuhanku , i didnt expect that seh !!! And i didnt expect it to come tonighy pula turh !!! Speechless then he give me a small note saying "will you be my girlf" super cute seh !!! Was speechless and paiseh at th same time . He sang and play th guitar specially fr me ! Awhhhh manis dan comel sekali . Can see he super nervous !!! So he gave me a chocolate ferrero rocher , candle so that i wont be in darkness , couple donation bear tabung which he plan fr us to chip in $3-5 everyweek and we can use it at th end of each month and lastly , couple diary so we can write anytjjng there fr both of us to read . So he wrote first . Alahai , once a secretory EXCO , he will always be . He make it as if he was doing minutes seh !! Kekek !! Then was my turn to rwrite . I dont like ppl to read or sit beside me when i want to write out abt how i feel ! Heheh so while i was writing he was playing with his guitar, cool like gt background music . Left th place ard 10 plud and jalan jalan punya jalan till super far think abt 3-4kn seh !! Penat tawuk . Finally we saw a bridge that is connected to th opposite park that can lead us to Punggol lrt station . Alhamdulilah ;) see never give up !! By th time we take lrt and change to take mrt it was near to 12 midnight . This is my FIRST time going hone this late in my entire life with a guy tawuk !!! & to add on mt mum know that we are out together . Alhamdulilah ya rabbi that my mum approve him ;))) went to 7-11 as he need to buy bread and home sweet home !! Awhhhh ! So we are officially together yesterday . And being together means i am goung to stay and stick with him through thins and thicks , we are going to guide each other to be better muslim , advices and be listening ears fr each other and lastly to help in studies and life and everything if can !! Insha'Allah . I always pray that this r/s of us will be blessed by him one day and it will be cinta kerana Allah taala duatu hari nanti ;) keh i want sleeo nw . Its HARI RAYA AIDILADHA TODAY !!! ALHAMDULILAH !!!
Assalamualaikum semua ;) jazakAllah khair ;) first day of second week was alright . School start at 9am and went with gula melaka . He have been telling me how extra cute and adorable i qas just now . I was normal seh . Huhu ! Terima kasih Atas pujian itu alhamdulilah ;)) first lesson was food safety and quality . Wokay insteresting . Learn almost th same thing as micro bio . Then was marketing . She was really mumbling to herself . She finished lecture super early like 45 mins so me and my girlz were deciding on what to eat and only to find out we have another lect with her . Almost evryone didnt print th notes so me and Carol take th iniative to print fr MESCI . Recorded th lecture but cant even hear properly . Break at 12 plus and went to North canteen fr lunch . Met Shidah at 1 plus fr zohur prayer . Then back to library . Was slacking aimlessly till 3.30pm . Suppose to finish class at 12 every monday simce fri is holiday so have AMF prac make up lesson . Waited fr Dr Loke until 4 ? Guess what ?? He told us he forgot that today is th make up class !!! He thought that its on wednesday eh :X So we stay back fr 3hrs fr nothing . Alarmak . I got tuition at 7.30pm so slack at South with Carol and Eunice until 6 . Carol nearly cried seh just nw . Haih . Hope she is strong !!! Waited fr Gula Melaka to finish his lecr and off to compass together . He was being super noisy today !!! Bought food and bused to Cik Su's housw . We were having mini picnic in th bus eating and drinking opwnly . To my surprise he drink green tea !!!! Heeh xD taught Sofie . She was being obedient today . She told me she going to miss mw bcause today is th last lesson i have with her . Awhhh !! She is really cute yet irritating little girl ;)) did my prayer at there and home sweet home with Gula Melaka ;))
Assalamualaikum ;) had a great time spent last friday . Fr th first time of th 4 sem , i got to finish class as early as 10am on friday . Usually it will be till 6pm ! Alhamdulilah ;) only attend marketing tutorial . Alhamdulilah i manage to understand it . After that went to meet Khairiah to accampnoy her fr lunch . Short catch up session befofe meeting Eyka to get her engineering book fr bbygirl . Headed to Dhoby with MESCI ^-^ they bully me seh !! Miki and Iz said i am th most prettiest , cutest and cleverest may girl in class . Hahahaha thats bcause i am th ONLY malay manzx . Eehhe :) and ohh just fr info , out of 90 plus students in FS in my batch , there are only 4 malay now :(( all are ladies you knw . Huhu ! Met Celine and clique and decided to go Strictly Pancake fr lunch . Ever since i knw that there sell liqour and not halal , i dont dare to eat it again ! I really dont knw seh its not halal . May Allah forgive me and my sins ;(( they eat all th delicious pancakes while i sat there playing my football game and drinking th nutella milkshake . Yumny yummm !! Th rest have to go back to school bcause they got GSM . Carol didnt want to go back and i accamponied her to watch a movie . And its her treat ! Heeh ! Went to Cineplax Cathay . She wanted to watch Th Perks of being a wallflower . I have no idea what is it abt . I want to watch sinsiter since gula melaka said its naice kan . Th timing there wasnt that good so we headed up to plaza sing GV . Ohh we went to this halloween room that was fulled of bloody horror setup !! Me and Carol decided to went it . Half way Carol shouted my name so loud seh !! Terus keluar balik tak jadi masuk .heheh ! Last last we beranikan diri and masuk ;) huhu ! Gula melaka wanted to join us to watch that so he rushed there frm masjid/school . Showed was at 2.40pm and he came ard 2.45 ard there .while waiting we roamed ard finding cold storage to buy drinkz . We were losr seh cant believe it !!! Reach th cinema at 3.50pm just naice !! It was a great show indeeed ! Cuma ada kissing scene byk uh . Wherenever there is scene like this i would usually turn around , close myeyes or look away . Sorry i budak kecil tak boleh tgk benda ni semua:] And gula melaka said i ate th popcorn so noisy bvcause i was super hungry didnt eat anything perh . Hehe ! Carol went to meet her friend and both of us stay there . He wanted to watch sinister . Buang duit seh he aldy watch with his family beh nak tgk lagi . I dont want him to waste his money just like that ! Plan to go to fort canning but it was aldy 5 plus so he wanted to go HnM to buy cardigan since it was on sale . Walked to Orchard and that was my very first time going in there (^-^) . Proud of myself . HnM virgin till 19/10/2012 . Wahhh macam nak shopping gytu but i bought a lot of clothes online aldy . Waiting fr thwm to arive jerh . Then we went to buy GongCha and went to OC rooftop and spent our time there . There was th first time we snap photo together . And i still remember his first qn of "what do you think of me?" Back then ard may . Nw he asked me th same thing again . Awhhh !! Kenangan katakan ^^ . ^^ . Had some heart to heart talk and off we went ard 7 plus . Snap photos before going off . Walked back to Dhoby and trained home ;) had a great day with them . But i was super tired !! Slept ard 11 pm that night . Saturday morning had to give tuition to Sofie at 8.30am . I woke up at 8.06am and managed to reach Cik Su' hse ard 8.34am . Fantastix gytu !! Sofie cried bcause she kena scolded by her mum . Kesian nya ya Allah !! Sayu gytu dgr dia nangis teresak esak . Macam nak nangis pun ada . Huhu !! Then ajar Sabrina sekali so that i dont have to come again tmrw . Next mon and tues will be their last lesson with me . :/ . Home and rest . Went to Abg Safuan house bcause Abg Yan jatuh dari longkang . Alahai kesiannya ;(( sampai sana as usual makan dulu baru boleh bubal ! Slack there till 9pm . Kena bully by all the manU fans dalam bilik Abg yan seh !! Hey Chelsea won totteham wokay 4-2 somemore !! ManU lost to thwm tawuk !! Heheh ! Home sweet home ;) sleeeping real sooooonzx . Selamat Malam ;))
Assalamualaikum ! Me is super duper drain off right nw . Todah 6hrs of lecture straight and went to tuition after that . Only had like sandwich mamzx ! And my brain cell went dead after teaching Sabrina . O level maths seh ! And i was kinda slow todag in solvin qns . Sofie was being litle irritating tapi i was just being patiencw with her . She dont want to do whag i ask her to do seh . Huhu ! Then Gula Melaka suprised me at th void deck again . I was looking so wear and gloomy beh terus teperanjat nampak dia dekat situ !! Alahai sweet luh dia . He dont want me to go home alone at night !!! He was cheering me up and i accamponied him to compass bcause he need buy printer ink . Heeh ! He sent me home ! && yesterday had th best night spent with him . First time balik pkol 11 lebih malam and my mum knows abt it . Heheh ! Dia lagi boleh ckp nanti mak Gula melaka marah balik mlm mlm . Awhhh !! Me and him so called had a mini serious talk and mini picnic at th block !! Cooked fr him tomyam spaghetti and he ate a bit . Went 7-11 and he borong snackz !! He bought so many chocolates and we sat at th pondok from 10 to 11 to eat and talk !! He was being super high at night !! Had a great time manzx !! Heehb ♡♥ keh shall sleep now ;) alhamdulilah fr today ;)
May peace be upon everyone ;) alhamdulilah my firat day of yr 2 sem 2 is doing good at this moment . Went to school with gula melaka on monday as both of us start at 9am . Had Food safety and qualith module fr first lesson . That module is basically abt th safety , precautions , cleaniness and Quality Control . Not bad uh ;) next was Marketing . It was super boring bcause this lectuerer keep talking and talking non stop . As in one lecturee can talk until 10 mins and th light was quite dim making me sleepy . Headed home after school , short nap and off fr driving lesson . Yesterday school starts at 1pm but i meet Younaice at 11 plus to accampony her to rehister and book her BTT . Wuhoo ! Insha'Allah i will book my TP at th end of this year dengan Izin dariNya . I took th wrong queue no she wanted private but i took th school one . Nyahahah xD . Then wrong venue somemore . Lol ! Discussed with her th date to book her BTT . Off to school and was 10 mins latw fr Dr Loke class . He teach us analytical method fr food sci and basically its abt whats inside th food chemically and th different method to identify it . Heeh ! After that was food proccesing and food presevative practical . 2 moduel combined into 1 prac fr 3 hrs . This is our first time entering th pilot plant where its kinda th same like food factory . Must wear double hair net , socks , no watch or necklance no mirror amd wear boots . Like interesting only . After briefing fr like 20-30 mins finally went into th room . Waahh jakun seh semua to see all th huge machine and equipment and th floor is super slippery . Bcause Lina Tan told us that fr 3 hrs prac we are going to spend only abt 1/2 hr doing th prac while 2.5hrs to clean those machines !!! At th ens od this sem we will be efficient cleaners ! Hehehwh xD . Went fr a little tour inside . Finish class ard 4 plus and waited fr Gula melaka and homed with him . Went to compass as he wanted to treat me Mac after my success of nt eating fast food fr th past one month . Alhamdulilah ;) and guess what ?? He was being super ulttra sweet seh ! I open th Macspicy box to see a small littlw note saying "i am sorry fr sleeping first" something along that line . Awhhhh !! Meltz melltzx ! Heeh ! Had our dinner . And fries dip with chocolate sundae . Muaaahz sedap seh !! Deposit money and home sweet home !! Hehe ! & ohh got my jersey and i want it black but he gave me white . Hoho xD . Keh keh shall update soon in th bus to school nw . Tata ;)
Assalamualaikum everyone ;) alhamdulilah mum and dad are back home safely from Malaysia yesterday . They reached here around 11 pm plus plus . And ohh before that went out to Nex with Wanee . Actual plan was to go town but i was siper lazy bcause its saturday . Were super hungary as i didnt eat anything ! Imagine teaching maths fr 3.5 hours without eating !! Your brains will literally die seh . So ate at Qiji and semua tgh budget gytu . Then went home to get kaching from granparents to buy fr them dinner . Then straight to nenek house . Kaka Azura asked us to pick and choose any of her apparels and she want us to take more and all is brand new frm her blogshop seh !!! Apa lagi kita borong uh ^-^ . Got a text frm Gula Melaka . He was in sorrow and dexided to meet him at SengKang CC while Wanee went home first . He was kinda sad ;( walked long wayy to sculpture park and sat at th slides ;) so he talked to me . Alahai memang sedih seh !! I did my very best to cheer him up with motivation . Sesungguhnya Allah swt maha mengetahui segalanya yang nyata atau tersembunyi ;) harap you kuat utk menghadapi ini semua !! Stay until nearly 10 and walked home . He dont wish to go home first and wanted me to accampony him . Awwhhh !! went separate way ard 10 plus ;) Todah no ngajie bcause Amir was busy . And he told us that if we can baca th iqra dengan lancar few of th pages , kita dah boleh naik Al-Quran . HAPPYNYA !! ALHAMDULILAH ! SYUKRAN GAZEELAN YA Allah !! Semuanya datang dariMu !! Happy seh !! Its really my wish to naik Quran by this year ;) amin amin ya Allah ;) So after our zohur prayer , headed to compass at 2.50 and waited fr Gula Melaka . Trained to Orchard . So we went Far east . And THIS IS MY FIRST TIME SHOPPING WIH A GUY WITH ME !! I NEVER LIKED SHOPPING AND A GUY FOLLOW BCAUSE TAKUT THEY FEEL ANNOYED BUT SOMEHOW IT WAS AN AWESOME EXPRIENCE WITH HIM !! we went to th same shop couple of times , walking to and fro and hope gula melaka was irriated by tjat !! And i bought 2 shoes ! Alhamdulilah . Hopw cam last fr this whole sem ^-^ and really seh ! I was like eh this is naice and when i ask Wanee , she will be like no and when i ask Gula melaka ,he will also said no . Alahai susah uh !! But managed to get both uh !! Ard 5 , both of them were already famished so we headed to Lucky plaza !! Really ramai orang seh !!!! And its like 12345678 times of filipinos and bangla seh !! Sunday mah their off day naik sesat kita dibuatnya tawuk !! Headed to Ayam penyet ria and we had our dinner there . Kekek uh bcause Wanee perasan ada satu mat hansem ni tgk dia ! LOL ! Then trained baxk to sengkang . Planned to go Punggol End to cycle and I DONT WANT !! Luckily th shop close on sunday pheew selamat !! So headed to compass and buy somw stuff before decided to rakke placed fr Wanee 3rd annivarsary . Walked frm Compass all th way to Rivervale Mall . And then to Her boyf house to check out th places and stuff . Everythjng settle abt 8 plus and went to Rivervale mall again to buy drinkX ! Walked home and penat seh !! Lenguh kaki gue deh ! But was a great and awesome time spent with both of my best people !!! Sayang dorang ♡♡ Wokay shall sleep soon . School starts tmrw and lesson from 9-12.50pm . Driving at 4.30 ;) asssalamualaikum semua ;))
Assalamualaikum everyone ! Wuhoo 1 more say before sem 2 starts . Excited yet nervous ! May Allah always be with me ! So yesterday i went to Far East with Mok . She wanted to find gifts fr her boyf fr their 3rd annivarsary . Lama seh drg bersama ! I saw how they go through and grow up togetjer ! Heeh xD all th fights , love and etc ;) so i tell myself that i dont want to spend on anything !! And alhamdulilah i managed to resist all th temptation !! But i was eyeing this naice brown pair of shoes . Murah seh $19.90 jerh !! Shall grab those later ;) home sweet home after that and we have th house to ourself !! Parents went jaybee bcause we did some renovation fr th kitchen ! Whopzx whoopzx . Eggcited much to see our new look kitchen ! So this is th FIRST time in 19 years my parents leave us at home by ourself and it really feels different seh . Really !! At night ard 9 , went to 7-11 to buy food . Heeh ! Today had my driving and i super like this instructor can !! He is nt that talkative and super informative !! Alhamdulilah he cleared my parallel . And now i finished all th modules . Doing th test routes and shall ask MY instructor if i can book TP yet . If can , i want to take ard december after my common test uh . Then went to compass to buy Sofie eclipse sweets ! Home sweet home . Ate packed food while watch Adam dan Hawa . Bestnya ! Tak sabar nak tgk next episode !! Then tidur sampai 5 plus . Tersadar bcause Gula melaka called me . Heeh ! Went out fr tuition with Sofie after my prayers . Alahai cute luh Sofie . She ask med what is my boyf name . Then i told her and she tried to pronounce it . Heeh ! Cute !! When i finished my tuition keluar lift guess who i saw ?? I saw Gula Melaka !!!! Super duper surprised to th max !! Ya Allah !! How on earth dia dekat situ seh he didnt tell me pun . !! Kirakn surprised uh ni ..sweet luh dia bcause dia taknak Eqah balik sorang sorang malam maalm ;) heeh ! He accamponied me to Rivervale Plaza as i need to buy food . Walked home . Awhhh !! Time pass by super fast when i am with him . Rindu dia uh ;( then dekat rivervale plaza guess who i saw ?? I saw CVSS sec 4 express guyz '10 batch . Tak sangka semua gula melaka kenal bcause frm same pri school . Weird seh !! Satu satu tgk terus jalan uh . Then kelakar bila gula melaka wanted to shake hands with one of his friend !! Kekek !! Heheh xD . Keh shall sleep now . Jap ada tuition and nak gi town again maybe ? Heeh xD
Assalamualaikum . Yesterday , i made Gula Melaka angry and it was th FIRST . Oh manzx i feel super duper guilty . I didnt inform him abt it first . And i feel that it was really my fault . So i plan to make something and it was impromto ! Huhu ! Super duper nervous to carry it out and Wanee motivates me to do that . Thankz Mok ;) Ard 8.40pm , changed and out to Compass . Bought balloon and Famous Amos Cookie for him . I brought post it , string to tie th balloon and marker to write . And lrt to his void deck ! I swear i was super scared mana tahu nampak mak dia ke bapak dia ke kakak dia ke . And we sat directly under his block . Should have sat few blocks away ! Wanee blew a red heart shape balloon bcause he likes red and i told her blow more bcause th heart is quite small teru boooomz meletup !!! Paiseh gila to th max !! Terus ketawa sendiri ! Then no.choice we had to settle fr orange . Th preparation very keycoh . I forgot to bring siccisor to cut th string and its nt th thin string its th thick one seh !! Wanee said no choice had to tarik sampai dia putus . Sesungguhnya sayang punya pasal , i just rentap kasi dia putus alhamdulilah putus juga !! Cuba tangan sakit uh . Then we had a hard time tying up th balloon -.- ard 9 plus we went to th staircase near th lift and tie it there . I dont knw how to tie th string to th handle of th staircase so i just twirl it ! Huhu ! Then i text him to come down . He asked me if i was therw but i just told him to come down quick and when he going down apa lagi Wanee hold my hands and we ran off seh !! Buat 100m dash !! She told me my hands were cold . Mesti uh nervous !! Tak pernah seh buat macam gytu dengan org pergi blok dia malam malam buat kerja gila . Huhu ! He called me and wanted to meet but told him i was aldy walking away . Heeh ! Glad he love it ! Nothiny much uh actually ;) Walked home bcause Wanee decided to walk . Nasib dekat ! Settle things out with him and alhamdulilah we are wokay ;) syukran ! Slept at 2am . Had driving this morning and did my parallel parking . Alhamdulilah i managed to do it . Yearp its quite difficult bcause gt so many steps to take note of . After reverse must change gear 1 than reverse again . Huhu ! But alhamdulilah ;) tmrw practose again if i can , i shall ask my instructor of i can book my TP or nt . Confidence level is only 60% . Huhu ! Wokay going to change and pray . And out i go to Town ;)
I cook this ^^^^ Tomyam pasta with popcorn chicken fr dinner since th dishes and rice fininsh fr today . Wokay but th tomyam doesnt really get th taste of if . Heeh ! Went out with gula melaka today . Had a super funnaye guitar lesson with Wanee and him . Wanee wanted to learn how to play guitar and an incident happened that made three of us cant stop laughing ! Heeh xD thanks Kiki fr th guitar . Headed back to Compass library . Wanted to watch Ombak rindu but tak boleh so we watxhed this super funnaye movie !! I forgot th tiltle but it was super funnaye seh !!! Heehh xD laugh so loud in th library luckily tak kena halau ;) had tuition with Sabrina and he waited fr me patiently and send me home . Terima kasih my dear ♡♡♡ I dont blame you if you are doubting me . I dont blame you if you are not convince enough . I know that i barely do anything to make you certain . I know i didnt do much to assure you . No it isnt suppose to be this way . Th pain that i went through , th hurts that i got . No one knows . They can say forget all those , move on , dont look back . Yeash , i have move on and i did not look back . But till now i cannot forgot everything that happened . And because of all these , its very hard fr me to express my love or show my feelings . Its not as easy as it seemed . I need time to really express and show my love . I am just scared that th sacrifice i made will come to a waste one day just like th past . I am not dwelling over it but all of that makes me who i am now . Yeash i become much much more stronger and wiser after all these but the bad point is , my perception and behaviour changed too . I am not trying to blame my past , Allah knows th best in everything and i beleive ada hikmah . && I tend to be paranoid that history will repeat again and same thing will happen . Its really not easy . Fornightly , i have to remind myself not to be insecure , not to think negative and all . Yeash i am fighting th voice within . I hope you understand and if you dont , i wont blame you . Its hard fr me to have th trust when it come to love. Once i give you , it means that i did my best to give you . But it can be easily breaks too . It isnt that strong yet . But hey i am really doing my best . Maybe you cant see it . I admit i am not as sweet or romantic as everyone . I am trying my best . Honestly , it really take time fr me . After my first love who make me go half crazy . It took me more than 1 yr to express my love to my current ex . But i am really really doing my best to make you happy , always be there fr you and make supplication fr you in my duas . I dont want anything in return . & I didnt makr anything big or wow fr you i am aware of it . Ohhh manzx , why am i like this ?!? So slow poke . Cant express and show and yet my love language is act of service . Insha'Allah pelan pelan . I just hope you dont give up on me really bcause you are th best that i could ask fr . Thank you Allah . Sorr for today post . I have always shown my strong side to others to almost everyone . I have always try to look things at th positive side . But once in awhile , i cant stop thinking hard too . Rest assure i will be wokay later . Im glad that Allah still loves me and willing to listen to me . He is th best listener . Syukran ya Rabbi ;))
Assalamualaikum semua ;) wuhoo watching manU and whatever it is , chelsea still leading keh -) and my weekends was awesome !! Spend my sat at ngah's hse aftee tuition with Sofirna & Sabrina . Sofie ask me why i break with him and why and why and why !!! Stress seh budak kecil tanya qns gytu -_- . Epic moments happen at ngah's hse . Kak Niza , Kak Shary and Kak anis made steamboat with a spreas of food !! Yummy yum seh apa lagi bedal uh !! Sedap !! I like th beef ! Springy gytu ;P Lepas turh we witnessed an accident right under th block seh !! Cab langgar car and driver styck inside ! Huhu ! Satu satu kaypoh && my uncle went down to check it out somemore !!! After th whole incident , we played monopoly deal and baru nak pakai deal breaker , dah papa suruh balik -(( heeh ! Today i had a short meetups with Gula melaka ! Went to actually eat snow ice at Kovan there but th shop is no longer there so we walked back to Hougang Mall and had Frolickz instead ! Sedap nya !! Crapz with him 24/7 . And had few serious conversation as well . He send me to nenek hse and he meet mum ! Ya Allah . First time a guy meet and salam my mum seh !! And mum looks friendly and hapopy . Wow gytu ! Dah turh tak apa , she told me that i shouldnt make him wait fr me bcause she pity him need to patah pergi patah balik . Alahai !! Sampai rumah nenek , cousins were all busy packing up , cleaning and painting Kak Zura room bcause sh will be getting marry next yr jan !! Which is like 3 mnths time ^-^ tak sabar seh ni ! And me and Wanee barely did anything bcause when we want to help thwy say nothing much to do so we duduk and chill ! Makan !! Nenek cook nasi tomato with red chicken cook ! Lol !! Ada penchok lagi cili padi sedap !! Had so much fun and laughter dengarkan pakcik makcik bubal buat lawak !!! And yearh ard 7pm we made Takoyaki ! Yay . Naixe you knw and alhamdulilah i managed to make it myself ! With some help of coursw ! Qujte troublesome uh but naice experience ! Kak Zura plan to have takoyaki during her wedding :D . Makan again and home after that ;) awesome day again! Blessed to have such a wonderful family , lovely friends . Thank you Allah . Ya baik datang dariMu yg tak baik datang dari diriku sendiri . And yearp timetable are out like finally after 3 sem i get a decent timetable . Monday usually staft late but this sem start at 9am and end ard 12 plus ! Tak ke awesome ! Tues lagi awesome start pkol 1 !! Tapi balik at 6pm uh . Wed double awesome ! Start 9 end at 12 seh !! Thurs is decent one 10-4 and my fri from wk 1-7 i go back at 12 noon . Alhamdulilah syukran . May this sem be benificial to me and may i be more disciplne in terms of studying ;) Rindu awak luh ;(
May peace be upon you everyone ;) hope you had a great day bcause i did have a super great day . Meeting all my love ones today ! Ohh in th morning i have driving at 10.15am . Gula melaka insisted to accampony me when he can actually sleep and snore at that time . Serious seh susahkn betul i feel bad ;( thanks to th U awak !! Sanggup dia . And i drive good today . Didnt have problem with anything but when doing th circuit , parking uh ! Firt few tries cock up seh !! I dont knw how to straighten my wheel ! I aldy made full lock to th left but after parking i only turn 1 round instead of 2 , making my car senget ;( kena marah seh ! But after that i manage to do . & alhamdulilah my S course , crank , directional change , vertical parking is wokay ;) alhamdulilah ya Allah ! I have no idea that i could go this far . Never thought a girl like me can do all thse . May Allah ease me fr my last circuit which is th parallel parking th difficult one :/ . After driving meet him back at KFC . We ddint buy anything but just had a good talk catch up session talking random topics ^-^ i love it that way ;D . Ard 12.30 make our way back bcause he going to Mawaddah and i going back to do my prayer . Go out ard 1.40 to Compass back and pay my bills ! Teeheeh ! Met him again fr awhile . Wahhh he was so different . Was kinda nervous and scared at th same time to talk and start a conversation with him seh ! Was my first time seeing him in that situation . So gave him time alone bt at th same time trying to cheer him up .tapi tak menjadi !! You knw the very bad bad feeling when your love one was sad and you yourself coudlnt make them smile baxk ! Thats bad !! Huhu ! 161 to Woodland and kinda late to meet Shidah . Thanks dear fr th notes bcause i need to give bbygirl and i met Carol awhile as she bought fr me yellow beanie ! Heeh ! Thankyou darl !! Meet bbygirl and she really look different . Alahai bbybby , kesian betul tgk keadaan dia gini . Went 7-11 beli air and i didnt want to eat bcaue will be having dinner with bestfs . So duduk at civic centre macam biasa and talk abt school before she started to tell me everything ! Wahhh kesian uh dia . Trying my best to help her and ease her pain . I would go all out fr my love ones ! Bubal punya bubal sekali ada 2 mat ni walk passed us then heard one of them said "abih takut" . Sekali check check one of them approached me ckp kawan dia nak my number . Alahai abang , apasal tak minta sendiri . Why must ask kawan one ? But i was really scared to even look up and talk to him . Ckp pun terketar ketar . Rejected him slowly . Bbygirl macam nak sound th guy . Terus angkat paiseh ! Comfirm i kena judge ! Nanti mesti dorang ckp i sombong uh , mana punya jambu semua ! Huhu ! Headed back to Compass and meet Mai and Khairiah . Been ages since we had this meetups together . Missing Nana bcause she is sick !! Had a short catch up before heading to Nex to have our dinner . Kita nak cri mkn jerh dah ard 1 hr . Wanted to try to this new japanese buffet Shuba sushi . First time seh tahu its halal !! Tapi i didnt have th appetite to eat . Really -( sodih sbb bestfs semua nak mkn sana but i ddint want taoi kesian kan drg so in th end mkn juga sana . Last last dorang kata last order 9.30 . Alahai , terus tak jadi mkn Pizza Hut . And oun tak ada mood nak mkn ! Tapi order jerh . Dorang sound seh ! Heeh ! Th order was quite a while and had a naice talk cum catching up session with thwn !! Wuhoooo ♡♡ sayang dan rindu korang !! Miss our sec miments zaman gemilang !! Feel unwell as my body kinda weak . Headed home first . Sorry !! But today totally naice one !! (Y) .
Assalamulaaikum semua ;) i am back from th 4 days trip to Jaybee . Wokay nothing much there . I spend 3/4 of my days eating , reading and sleeping ! Perangai budak gedempul seh !! Heeh ! Oh we ate Pizza Hut at Kipmart on th first day . YAY ! Then papa wanted to renovate th kitchen there !! This is super awesome bcause our kitchen REALLY need to have a NEW look ;) and its going to be a new cabinet , stove and sink ^-^ waaalaaahhaah ! Awesomeness ! & i dont like going there bcause forever kena kacau dgn matszx di sana ! Minta kena tetak seh kepala . Hahahah ! And thwy ned to go again next thurs to sunday but i cannot ;( thurs & fri driving . Sat tuisyen deh . Huhu ! & today was my first auto lesson and it was my forst time driving auto car . And THANK YOU TO MY GULA MELAKA FOR ACCAMPONYONG ME TO KOVAN !! H was having sinus and just woke up . He can just stay at home but he choose to accampony me seh !! Terima Kasih ya azizi ;) it was a bit weird to drova an auto car bcause you dont have to keep clutching in . It was so much easier uh but i keep giving a hard brake whenever i stop th car . Hahaha ! Keep jerking back . But luckily he said my driving was wokay . Safety check eeqah buat bodoh jerh !! Heeh xD . But seriously Kovan punya service tak bagus !! The instructor there semua perangai !! Ada ke dia suruh Eeqah cari sendiri no kete eeqah . Wahhh !! Darah up seh nasib Gula melaka ada !! Heeh ! Baru nak gi makan nan dia then mum said to go home straight bcause Ngah masuk hospital . Alahai sodihnya . Maafkan saaya gula melaka !! Home , prayed , changed and off to SGH . Kesian ngah ada sakit jantung . Hopefully he is alright insha'Allah ! May Allah be with him ;) . I have yet to eat anything since 11.30am lapar sungguh seh terus gi canteen after waiting fr Abg Faliq , abg Izal and Abg Azhar and bought nasi Ayam penyet . Tak sedap tak lapa punya pasal abiskan juga uh ;L . Home sweet home ! Tmrw morning driving , the meeting Carol . She bought fr me yellow beanie ! Yay ! Meeting bbygirl Sha to give her Y1S2 notes . And dinner at Jalan Kayu with lovely bestfs ♡ Keh first thing nak luahkan , Wanee asked me when i was in jaybee , "bila kakak nak matey dgn Irsyad" . Huhu ! Terus tak tahu apa nak jawab . People might and have been wondering apasal kita dua syg each other tapi belum matey . Is about me . Bcause i tell myself after Kidd , i dont want to have any r/s anymore bcause guys are hard to please and they wont understand you . But he prove me wrong . Really man , but i do trust him and i feel really bless , safe and good whenever he is around me . His tender , love and care , masyallah ! Makes me fall deeper . Having to be with him is one of th greatest thing really seh . Alhamdulilah . Next nak ckp is , i really scared of rejection uh . Macam you knw you nak tlg buat benda or nak ikhlas buat sesuatu tapi once org turh ckp taknak , terus sodih and kecewa seh . Bcause Eeqah tak suka paksa org uh . Kalau dia taknnak , means taknak and i jarang paksa . Jadi kalau org turh ckp taknak , eeqah akan rasa diri eeqah ni tak cukup bagus utk menolong mereka . Tak kisah uh in terms of kawan atau matey . Huhu ! Emm i did think fr a while and realised that all these while lelaki yg i with is they like me first . Then A few will be i like them and they like me but they confess first . Only satu ni jerh yg Eeqah suka tapi dia tak suka dekat Eeqah . Alahai , malu seh seriously ! Even since that , terus takkn terhegeh hegeh lagi . And thats why i dont like to do th first move too . Heeh ! Prangai kan ! And padan muka saya ! Huhu ! Ingat seh dulu . Eeqah gi zoo fr th first time dgn Assyura padahal dah ckp nak gi zoo and break my first virgin trip there with ex saya . Dia sangat sangat sedih bila dpt tahu saya pergi dulu . And at that point i fikir Pasal dia sedih sangat seh . Sekarang baru saya tahu perasaan dia . Heeheh :X
Assalamualaikum ;) above were some of th photos taken during today's outing with Gula Melaka ! Awhhh manzx missing him now liao ;( sodih bulu esk dah pergi Jaybee tak dpt contact dia . Tak apa , semakin jauh kita berada dgn orang yang kita sayang , semakin kuat doa kita untuknya ;) heeh ! Mulanya pergi jaybee hari ni tapi papa tukar esok pagi . Yay ! Lepas solat zohur terus keluar jumpa gula melaka dekat platform . Quite rushing bcause the CDC closed at 3pm . Reach ard 2.45pm and alhamdulilah manage to book 2 auto lessons and 3 normal lessons . Hopefully can clear my parking by that lessons . It was raining quite heavily then and we trained back to SengKang and decided to go to Jalan Kayu to have Prata by LRT . Jakun seh !! I rarely take th LRT sampai naik salah LRT side tawuk ! Heeh :D . Walked to Jalan Kayu and only to find out my naan dont have ;(( dah semangat tawuk nak makan then the man said no hav .. terus kita dua cabut gi lain kedai . Oopzzs ! In th end we ate prata . I ate 1 egg and he ate 2 kosong 1 egg . A very veey funny super dupee funny incident happended there . Gula melaka was paiseh-ing to the max . He appraoched this men fr a menu and to find out that the man wasnt the owner of th shop . Muka sardine seh ! Paiseh tahap maximum !!! Heeh xD ketakawan all th way ;D And guess what ? We had our tauhui after that ! Sedap seh !! I really like th tauhui there even si Wanee pun suka ^-^ . Ada ke melengas kita kesat dekat each other . Heeh abih dah cuci tangan Eqah kesat dekat baju dia . Maaf jer eh ! Heeh ! Walked to Anchorvale ! I really thought it was far but it feel near with him by my side . Awhhh ! Cheh ! While walking we talk a lot of craps . Suka dia sebab dia selalu layankan my craps . Luckily he isnt th serious mature type kalau gytu cfrm dia akan fikir Eqah irritaing !! Stop at th bridge to enjoy nature of th lake . Alahai can i just pause that moment a bit more ..huhu ! Went to Anchorvale Rooftop and watch Ombak Rindu ! Seriously its our first time watching it and i really think th novel is bettee . Sebab more conflict between Haris & Izah . Fr me th movie , is too sekejap Haris punya hatred . I cried when reading th novel but th movie my sister , mum all cried but not me . This never happen before bcause i cry easily ! Heeh ! Paused at 7.22pm and we went Mawaddah to do our prayer . He ajak me go there . Masya'Allah ! He is th first guy that ajak me to go solat . What more can i ask fr ? I want a guy that constantly remind me of Allah and that will bring me to th mosuqe for prayers . Thats my dream guy . I thank Allah for him . To any other people , he may be an ordinary guy but in my eyes , he is everything i could ask fr . ♡♡ Actually i rrally really paiseh to go mosque wearing that without tudung but he keep motivate and encourage me not to malu . Alhamdulilah manage to do prayer there . Amin amin . Then got to talk with this nenek . She so baik ;) heeh ! Walked to compass and bought our nasi ayam fr dinner ! Lepas turh buy errand and went to block to continue watching ombak Rindu sambil mkn ! Awhhh i wish i can stop th time ! Home sweet home with heavy heart ard 10.25pm . Sodih seh . Saying goodbye is never easy ! Thank you Allah for your blessing , thank you Allah for today and thank you gula melaka fr th time you spent on me today ♡♡ priceless and never be forgotten :)