Honestly, im afraid of uncertainty. But such is life, full of uncertain and things can change from the initial plan. Yesterday, my nenek baru balik hospital. It was on 9th June, my nenek suffered from seizure, suddenly. I was at fitwah meeting and already made plan to meet Syaz's sister, Nana for our first volunteer with SAVH. It was Nana first time doing volunteer work and i joined also so can give her semangat. She nak but malu so i teman je. But Allah has better plan. After meeting, i called Nana saying i cannot make it feel super guilty but i know my priorities. When reached home, nenek was shaking, so decided to call the ambulance and this was my first time ikut. The paramedic driver is malay and had to sit in front with him. He started to talk to me i guess he saw my panicky face. He asked if im from medical or nursing course Hahahahaha errrr no? I mean dulu food science ada belajar basic phamarcology but not everything. Tapi he bawak like wow pecut abis, i pegang the handle seh. Alhamdulilah managed to reach super fast and nenek was giving treatment. The doctor said nenek mght not survived this time round. Allahu, sebak sangat sangat! But alhamdulilah, after few days, she dah okai mcm biasa. Cuma kali ni, she is in NG so cannot feed anything by mouth. I cancelled everything i had for the whole week (so sorry) but im super blessed and thankful to have sucha caring friends. Alhamdulilah, im very touched. Our first day raya was at hospital but everything was okai as long as she is improving. Did i mention that she pinched me super hard dekat tangan bila dia tgh mengamuk sampai now my hand ada blue black? Hehehe takpeluh, as long as she okai. During this period, so much things need to be done sebab hari raya was in few days. Kalau tk gi hospital, i feel super guilty sebab yang lain bukannya visit sangat. So everyday, me and Wanee went to YCH and buka there. Reached home ard 9-10pm, then bake tapak kuda orders till 12midnight or later. Lepas tuh, need to prepare 600 paper bag order and tie 600 ribbons. So that whole week was super duper busy, always sleeping near to 4am. Honestly, penat gila and i just feel like breaking down. My family expect alot from me sebab im the first. My dad, mum and adik. But alhamdulilah, i managed to endure and stay strong, thankiew Allah and dua from my friends.

Alhamdulilah, my raya so far been okai. Not as keycoh and awesome as past years, but definitely better than expected.