Well, currently im talking to someone. No, not into relationship all, just friend-friend. We have been in constant DMs for the past 3 weeks. Our conversation is not the small talks kinda like what are you doing? Hows your day. We shared videos, hadith, quotes and etc to motivate and remind each other. I dont knw but i find it awesome. I meam rather than the normal typical small talk. He even ajak me to go to one of the talk last 2 weeks. But oh well, i was working so i cant go for that talk although i aldy registered my name. Well, we actually met before not as in eye to eye but more of terserempak dekat one of th event. We made eye contact but didnt tegur each other (kinda awkward).

Everything was well... okai i guess than one day, he decided to stop replying my DMs? I mean i dont knw maybe my last DM wasnt supposed to have any reply. So i was like okai maybe he feel i boring or what ah. So i didnt prompt him or what. Then ard 2-3 days later at 1.52am, he sent me a youtube video. And i dont want to look as if i was eager and excited to talk to him so i reply his DMs the next morning. Me being me when im comfortable talking wtih someone, i will be all  cheeery saying good morning and thanks fr the video all. Bcause i can totaly relate the video. And... no reply... so i waited and waited.. he didnt reply. But that night, he repost my post at fb and he see my ig stories and seen my DMs. I was wondering, why would he do that? If you dont want to talk to me then dont DM. Bcause i really thought maybe he dont want to continie the convo but he did sent me youtube video means he started the convo. But when i replied, he didnt even reply me. I was.. kinda annoyed? Like what you want from me?? Deep down, i dont like to be blue tick/seen by someone im talking too. I mean we are friends, if there is any problem or you dont want to talk, jst tell me bcause i no you dont have the obligation to reply my DM. So i was thinking and kept thinking if i did say something wrong? But i think no? So, i pasrah aldy seh. Told Khai about this. & she said that maybe he is busy. Oh well, i learn not to expect any replies. Sekali, last 3 days, when i was at home, i saw his name pop up. It was like, 'Hey, salam. How are you?'

Honestly, i roll my eyes reading that. Like to think emotionally, dah tak reply me then alih alih DM ckp salam all. Uhhh but nope, i dont want to act emotionally so i was being rational and replied his DM few hours later very neutral. No cold shoulder neither did i put emoji and being friendly. I guess he could sense it bcause he was asking me if i was okay after my reply. Hahahah tau pun sis tak okai. Then he was saying that he dont like to talk to girls when they tgh mences. Hahahaha merepek lerh i feel but i didnt prompt any further questions. I was still being very neutral. And he started to yknw talk and ask me questions abt islam again and i was... okai after that. But i told myself i dont want to be too friendly and outspoken to him anymore. I mean i know i dont have the right to asl him questions mcm why you ddint text me then now baru nak DM bcause we only knw each other baru je. And kawan je kot. But i really tak suka bila tgh active bubal then suddenly go ghost on me. Dah kena byk kali i mean maybe my fault bcause sometimes i did that too. Padan muka sis i guess? Oh well, currently still DM-ing him but he didnt reply and havent read the text. I think he tgh night shift.

Hahahah sorry rant here bcause i dont want to tell ppl im talking to someone. I guess only 3 orgje yang tau abt this. I knw people may judge me but hmmm oh wellsss...