Assalamu'alaikum. My sunday been boring. Supposed to have tuition but ard 10.30am when i was about to bangun, my tutee texted me saying to postpone tuition. Apa lagi tidur balik ah. Kekeke!
Bangun tgk my mum buat roti kirai apa lagi bedal ah. After zuhr, help mum do layang layang bcause she want try buat new flavour for hari raya. Hahaha mcm mcm tau. First was salted egg potato chips, then fried crabstick now layang-layang oats. But it was very naiceeeeeee, love it! Cuma nak buat je payah.
Tried to finish second last chapter of HRM but couldnt finish it. Try to finish it by today and start on last topic.

Anyway nak cita sikit ni, smlm nya smlm on Saturday, the boyf (cehhhh boyf sehhhhh) told me his family going umrah and it would be good if i can go so can intro to his family. And i had a hard time deciding whether to go ke tak. I mean, im okay in meeting his family cuma usually kalau nak send ppl to umrah akan ada relatives all, takut jugak nak jumpa the relatives. But after consulting with A'in and Nad ( i trust these two so much) , then decided to go je. And ohh i didnt bathe the whole day sekali my uncle and aunty dtg sbb nak tgk my nenek. Mampos seh takut je bau so after salam, i sat jauh jauh from them. When they balik, told mum i going airport to send my friend's family off to umrah. My mum dah pelik asal nak antar eh. So... i explain that it was S's family. And she was like patutluh. Terus she adviced me to pakai senonoh sikit. Selama ni i pakai tak senonoh ke? Hahahah! Sebelum keluar, she checked me first. She disapproved of the blue bag i wanted to bring. So had to change to black small bag. Then wanted to wear superga dah pakai socks then my mum said no tak kena. Mati mati asked me to change to other shoes. Wahhhhh i stress sekejap seh bcause he naik uber to fetch me (actually tak tau asal dia naik uber padahal ada 27 tau). Dalam uber, actually nervous sikit but we just keep talking so okay ah. Bila sampai, i was like ahh sekejapnya. His famiky have yet to reach so decided to go CBTL to buy some drinks to calm myself down. Sekali in the end, nampak his relative tgh duduk situ. Then his adik was there few minutes later. Lepas dah beli, went to his mum and other siblings. Hahahaha mak dia cute, kecik je. But luckily she was busy layaning the relatives so i all the way talk to S. Then the sister and mum talk to me. They pesan to send me home but i was like errr tak payah susah susah bcause rumah dia dekat Tampines je. If take 27 leceh kena patah balik but they insisted. Lol. The family went in ard 12midnight And we both thought dah takde bus tapi bila check alhamdulilah masih ada. So 27 off to sengkang. Dalam hati eh bestnya dpt spend time a bit more dengan dia. Sebab kalau naik uber sekejap je dah sampai.
Sampai rumah at 1am sharp. Balik terus my mum interrogate seh. Hahahah! But alhamdulilah so far so goood. Doakaj yg terbaik!! 🤗

Alhamdulilah!! The talk with Ustazah I on tuesday was such am amazing one. Even though the topic is about Haid, but she managed to capture our attention for the past 1.5hours.

Okai before that, i went to myf dulu to study. Told A i would come after zuhur but sampai sane 3.30pm. HAHAHAH! Kinda awkward bcause they were having meeting but i just pasang earpiece and belajar. Started to do my HRM like finally. Cmc so far okay ah. Just need to memorize. Yana came fr a while to put her bag before going for tuition. S texted me saying that he already at town. Were supposed to go Cine to satisfy my makisan cravings but tetiba i rase malas nak travel. Instead, told him to come Bugis and eat around here je. He choose 18 chef so off i go. Told A i going Bugis to jalan jalan jap and he was like, "nak dinner dengan S eh?" Wow, how did he knows?? HAHAHAHAHA!

It was raining cat and dog ane i didnt bring any umbrella so jalan je ah. Dari jauh nampak dia luar BHG so cute. Love when he wore that flannel top. So we walked towards 18 chef and i was talking, tetiba out of nowhere, he stopped. Fikir apa sekali tegur kawan. Popular jugak mamat ni. Baru dinner dekat Bugis stop 3 kali bump into his friends. Then, bila nak order makan, was contemplated whether to try the creamy mango ke tak and he said not bad so cuba je ah. So.... not bad actually cuma cepat muak. Actually, this is our first 'real' date. I mean before this usually dengan kawan. Heheh! I dont know if i eat cepat or dia makan lambat but i think it was the first one. When im very comfotable with someone, i will talk more. Otherwise, i like to listen :) hehehh! Macam macam story i told him and likewise he did told me a lot of story too. Time passed by so fast when we are happy. HAHAHAH! Check check nearly 7pm soon. So made our way back to myf. But halfway singgah KGC to buy food for Y. Kesian dia dari pagi tak makan. Reached MYF and mahgrib all. Then si A asked me to do opening speech. Mak oiii! Tak nak saya. So ended up Ustazah I yg buka. Heheh. So loving her. Sat in front, right beside her and layan her all. Happy gila dpt bubal with my favourite ustazah. Had a good amount of laughter and knowledge. At the end of the talk, i did teared a bit. Tersentuh bila dgr ustazah baca doa. Not just me several of the audience did too.

Then, bila dah abis tuh, ada this lady tegur me and asked if im ohhbulan. I was like yes yes but i totally couldnt remember who she is. Paiseh gila but had to ask her name. Then she told me she was my ig friend. Wahhh alhamdulilah she remember me even though i dont have ig and i dont remember her. May Allah bless her. Lepas tuh, another lady talk and asked me the same thing. But luckily ni i ingat ingat lupa. Heheh! Need to step up my game eh! Kemas kemas myf then S came with his friends. So chill chill and ate the kway teow with Y before going back first. S stayed back with his friends bcause he still belum abis meeting. Alahhhh baru ingat nak balik sesame sehh! & no im not clingy just rindu. HAHAHAHA!

Homed sweet home around 11.40pm. Texted S to inform i was home and i dont know somehow he started to call me "love" hahaha sweet yet tak biase. Bcause both of us dah biasa with bahsakan diri as kau aku. Tadi dah kena sound with his friends in facr ramai yg dah sound. Trying to change slowly ah but kekadang dah biasa. Heheh!

Such a good day. Alhamdulilah, thankiew Allah!!

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So..... my nenek skrg dekat my house. She dah discharged last 2 months but after that stayed with my uncle at Marsiling for 1 month before coming to my house.
But on sunday... my dad and my aunty argued. Gaduh besar sampai halau halau and tengking all. I cried like crazy... all because of different mindset. My aunty tknak pisahkan nenek and atok bcause now she taking care of my nenek while my dad jaga my atok. She assumed that my dad nak pisahkan dorang. But my dad tak. Bukan senang nak jaga dua dua both tgh sakit kuat. And my dad ckp if betul taknak pisahkan, then they jaga ah atok. But then dorang taknak. Gaduh punya gaduh sampai dah 8pm. Supposed to be a good day. Ya Allah, cobaan untuk kami sekeluarga. We ended up balik naik cab and my dad straight go work. I really tak tau what will happen after this.. just doa for the best..

Assalamu'alaikum....
I going to sleep soon but just feel like blogging. Anyway last tuesday help an organisation for their talk as usual. Ohh before that did i mentioned that i slept late like near to 4am because was whats apping S. Hahahaah! He was sick so kesiannnnn. Throughout the text, we managed to know more about each other like he told me why he was attracted to me? Hahahaha abit cheesy but he said bcause he can see my sincerity when i do things? Hahahaha! And secondly, something abt my errr Lips. LOL seh! I also shared with him about this incident that happened to me. And we talked about nikah gantung!!!! Even Ustaz Z knows about us & he suggested for us to nikah gantung. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Bubal nya bubal sampai 4 lebih.

Tuesday i was from school to study abit. Lunched with Mok and met Ain. Then headed to Bugis. Ain met her friend fr dinner while i met Az. Sampai tempat tuh je my friend was bukak lagi bollywood. HAHAHAHAHAH! Catched up with Az. So happy for her!!! Love my exco very much!!! Then my friend tetiba asked me, "am i serious with S?". Dah tuh takpe, he said i jealous due to some of S fb post. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH! Cakap dengan confident pulak tuh! Kelakarluhhhh! The thing about me is i dont like to tell how i feel about someone. Takut dah bilang bilang sekali bukan jodoh.. lagi susah. So when my friends ask me about me and him, i will just laugh and said biarlah rahsia. But only to the very very very close friends i will maybe say a bit ah. Taknak ckp ckp end up tak jadi.

And we actually wanted to lowkey. But people just know?? Hahahahah! And the talk by Ustazah was beautiful!! Full house gila sampai duduk dekat tangga bawah seh. No joke!!! Me and Yana duties have always been to welcome the ladies but that night terlalu ramai org sampai Yana kena gi belakang utk arrange their seating and make space. I pulak kasi org masuk sampai dah takde space langsung. So had to turned down some of the ladies sbb dah really tak muat :/ sorry ladies!! Last last kan i sorang dekat luar.. haus nak beli air tapi tak pakai kasut. HAHAHAHAH! Then this lady came which turned out to be my hi-bye friend. Heeh! She so sweet accaomponied me to sit outside when she can choose to go home. She then started to share with mr about her crush. Wahhhh so cute!! Heheh! Bubal sampailuh the talk abis. We managed to exchange number. Alhamdulilah new friend made. Heh! Kemas kemas and chill jap catch up with a few of my friends before heading back with Yana and Az. Awesome night indeed :)

Why am i being so emotional tonight? Too many things going on my mind but i cant seem to let it out.

Malam ini aku sendiri,
Hanya bulan yang menemani.
Berat rasa hati,
Resah jiwa ini.

Im just scared...