In a blink of an eye, Saif is going 20 month soon. Time reallt fly. I thought of going back to work when he turned one but idk why this heavy burden feeling if i had to leave him… is like for the past 1 year, i jaga him almost 24/7 and i wont be able to do so if i go back to work. I would be lying if i say i dont miss working life, meeting new people and work on deadline, having your own money to spend etc. A few ppl asked if i ever will return to work… i wonder that too but at same time, i dont want anyone else to takecare of my bby. My mum offered and im grateful for that, i really am. Perhaps for now, i want to raise and care my baby my own way. I wanna be there witnessing his milestones and i wanna personally didik him. Because i remember, back then when i was still single, i prayed and dreamed of having a baby one day and unconditionally love and care for him. Alhamdulilah, Allah answered my prayer with baby Saif and im willing to sacrifice my career to care for him. && im super grateful that my husband is supportive of this and alhamdulilah that we are financially stable even though he is working hard alone. Alhamdulilah, thank you Allah for the beautiful gift❤️