One whole day, one wholeeee freaking day, he didnt reply me (okai maybe not one whole day but 1/2 day). So annoying, i feel sooo sooo annoyed! Like hellooooo we were supposed to meet today after his meeting and he told me he abis meeting nak discuss all so abis ard 2plus and told him i need to be back home early ard 6 then i thought kalau dia abis 2plus, jumpa 3 then gi East Coast Park sampai dah nak pkol 4pm duduk je sekejap dah kena balik. So told him, jumpa lain hari. Beh he was like ohhh okai jugak bcause he also need to go for another meeting etc etc. Like seriously? Okai fine tu takpe, i understand. But susah sgt ke nak text and inform me? A simple text like, "you i will be busy. I text you back soon," dah cukup seh! Susah sangat ke nak text aku? Bukannya suruh kau report strength atau update me your whereabout sia. Cuma suruh informed me you are busy and i will text you when im home. Ni tidak, bila aku ckp, "is okai no worries" bila dia nak kena gi meeting at Bugis tuh, lepas tuh tak reply sampai skrg. Annoying seh! Selalu mcm gini. I totally understand you are busy man, meeting everywhere and everytime especially with a lot of prog now, tapi jangan buat aku gini ah, tngu tngu your text every minute gytu. Tauluh kau tak check phone bila keluar, tak suruh kau text text aku pun. Setakat cakap that simple words je kot. To assure me, thats all. Ni bila dah balik baru text which is somtimes 1am-2am? Nak reply kau lepas tuh pun mcm meeehhh, might as well aku tidur seh. Then reply sardine je tak bersalah. Kau mesti tak suka kalau aku buat gytu dekat kau kan? Haishhhhhhh! Nak merajuk ah nanti.

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Pergi bersama bayu pagi.
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Yang tinggal hanyalah memori.

Alhamdulilah, had an awesome day jusf now. Last minute, i postponed my tuition today bcause Farah, Shireen and Nad ajak karoks at Pasir ris. Apa lagi, join ah, $8 for 5hrs seh and free flow drinks. Wuhooo awesomenezz! Met them ard 2.30pm and Fana joined us. Karoks sampai 6.30pm seh penat but awesome! Tapo tak nyanyi lagi melayu sgt ah but still always fun with them around. Lepas tuh, asr at downtown before heading to Bugis by train to meet the rest of the girls for dinner. Well, lepas solat at Raffles, headed to Im.. Cafe! And yearhhh got to meet Fazi, Aqilah, Raz! Tak tau nak makan ape but feeling makan burger ah so ordered some special burger and wow sedap but kenyang gila!! Pelan pelan cuba abiskan. Lepas tuh, halfway makan ada birthday cake and org nyanyikan utk me and Shirz! Awhhhh sweeet gila and malu jugak!! Sweeeet uh dorang suka suka suka sgt! Blew the candles and share the rainbow cake with them. Got a gift and yay! ITS A WATCH WUHOOOOOOO HAPPY GILO! ALL MY WATCH TAK PERNAH BELI, SELALU ORG YG KASI DAH NI RASE ARD 9 WATCHES I HAVE, LOVE LOVE LOVE!! Thankiew ladies!!! So they treated the meal. Then we go dessert ice cream near Masjid sultan. So much fun and laughter ah! Happygurl93! Balik all nak naik uber/grab but all high demand so we all serer ourself to naik train. Heheh! Home sweet home ard 10.50pm!!

ALHAMDULILAH, THANKIEE LADIES FOR THE AWESOME TIME❤

Yesterday was hari raya haji and again, as expected, my uncle family tak datang. Kalau hari raya tak dtg, ni hari raya haji pun tak dtg. Kesian dengan my nenek seriously. I thought lepas atok meninggal, the rest of her anak will sedar and realised that life is too short for us to not appreciate our parents. Alhamdulilah, lepas tuh, one of my uncles frequently visit my nenek and dia mmg selalu kasi duit to her mak. If my dad mintak share beli something fr my nenek or arwah atok, he always okai! He is my father support and he is the youngest!! Im currently teaching his anak maths!

But my other uncle and aunty... tak tau nak ckp apa. I always try my best to husnuzon but... sampai bila nak bermusahan adik beradik? My dad dah maafkan and dah invite them to come to our house. If tak nak pun, at least ingat ah mak. Dah suruh take turns to jage, tak nak , suruh kongsi duit maid taknak, suruh kongsi beli barang untuk nenek lagiluh taknak. Jadi sebagai anak, selain dari doa, what else can you give to your mum?

I hope i wont be like this one day. Ya Allah, protect me and my family from evil!

I feel so.... pissed? No thats not the right word. Disappointed? Maybe it is. I tak tau how to express this but yeah, kinda feeling sad, very disappointed i guess. Oh well, i think im just kinda emotional tonight and i shouldnt besar besarkan. Okai cite dia gini...

So, S told me he had work just now and we still continue to text. But ard 4plus, he stopped texting me. I was like okai ah maybe dia busy, bcause lepas kerja he needs go hospital to visit his atok. Atok dia jatuh smlm so kena warded and dia puasa also. So i know he busy ah tak boleh reply. But at 6pm ish, he commented on my fb wall then i was like ohhh okai. Husnuzon maybe dia busy so tak sempat reply. Then at 7plus, he POSTED A PHOTO AT IG!!!!!! Terus feeel down. Like seriously? Can post photo but cannot reply me???? I dont need you to constantly text or reply me (im not clingy). I know you are busy so you just have to say,  "im busy, i reply later" or something along that line so that i dont have to keep checking my phone to wait for your reply kan?? I keep checking my phone every few minutes and check if i have send my last text ke tak. Then i see you like posts/photos etc like serious ah??? Sumpah sedih. So much questions in my head and at same time i really really try to be very very understanding. Even when im feeling this way, i asked myself should i feel this way? Is this feeling even valid to begin with? Or am i just being sensetive today? Or is it he.... dah malas nak layan aldy? Or maybe dah boring with me?  But i always tell myself to not be emotional and always fikir dengan rational. Maybe just tonight ah angin (moodswing).

Okai, but on bright side its hari raya haji today! ☺