Indeed this year Ramadhan is a challenge for me. The month where we all look forward to made me kinda nervous as I told myself, will I be able to fast this year? The struggled i face when trying to puasa sunnat is making me doubt myself. Let alone this year Ramadhan, i have to go office. If i come at 8am, i can leave office by 4pm and if i come at 9am, i leave at 5pm. This means that if i keluar straight after subuh, i have ample time to cook for iftar.

My first day of fasting was okay until 4pm. Well, on that Sunday, we rented a car bcause nak rent car for Raya. We took 4 hrs for $16 and that was super cheap hor bcause the rest of the car were like $26-$28 gitew. Terkejut seh tgk the condition of the car!! So rabak but hmmmm okailuh for us to run errand for 4hrs tahan je hahaha. Went to Ikea to carik foldable chair or stool because our house if more than 6 ppl datang, tak tau nak duduk mana hahahah. Went to carik bekas kuih at Ikea and we saw this one at $4! so lawa and cheaper than shopee but when we read the price, the $4 is for THE LID!!! The bekas itself is $5 so total is $9!!!! hahahahaha kwang asam betul!! In the end beli stool and frame. Then we headed to BWY to get more nutella but hahahhaa all dah OOS! luckily managed to beli 11 bottle last week! Once reached home, dah start pening and mual eh but jst have to sit down/baring till azan. Even nak teraweeh, its abit of a struggling for me so i ask K to read short surah.

Second day of puasa onwards, still pening but slightly better though i vomited right after sahur, just had to convince myself im strong. Last few nights while doing teraweh, i cried suddenly... rasa mcm overwhelmed and mcm why am i feeling tired and weak and its only day 2! I guess, this is my fight for this ramadhan.