Alhamdulilah, this is my first mosque event as Head for this year. HAHAHAH! Giving back to the community is the theme. Well, we were only given 1 hr to plan a prog with them and afterwhich are abled to iftar with them. Them = Pertapis Children Home. I actually signed up to volunteer for Pertapis Woman and Girls but they didnt get back to me. So ended up at CPAS.

Babyboo so sweet. Sblm we together, he have been helping me, coming up with ideas and all. Bila dah together, he encourage and give me the support, hehe padahal this is not my first time doing event but nervous jugak takut screw up. Az was there too wuhooo i let her become game master. Heh! When the children met us je some of the boys dah keycoh. Apa lagi bila main game. So happy to be able to put smiles on their faces. May Allah bless each of them. After 1hr plus of playing some activities, the children get ready for iftar while the helpers did our asr prayer. Its was aldy 6.45pm by then. HAHAHAHAHA! iftar with them and did closing before we parted ways. So we had a small gift fr the children and while i was standing at the queue and they salam salam me, came these 2 boys who suddenly asked me if i ada matey ke tak. I was like dah apahal dengan budak budak ni. Abih tersengih sengih nak kasi pickup line tapi malu. HAHAHAHAH! In the end, bila dah jalan balik with babyboo, he told me the boys was in his group or something and they knew him bcause he helped PCH before. The they want to kacau kacau me but malu. HAHAHAHAHAH CUTE AH!

Walked to Hougang mall bcause mum asked to buy some nuts at Phoon Huat. Then we decided to walked to SK bcause i like walking long distance with the love one😉. Chill chill at my void deck first before i naik atas. Heheh! So sweet luh antar sampai depan pintu and nak meet my mum. Heheh!

Salam sayang!! Hows fasting for everyone? Hope everything is well. So far, my ramadhan have been a busy one either at masjid or helping with the iftar distribution, helping myf with their progs or jst at home doing house chores. Yesterday was my first time ifthoring outside with my friends. Well, the 3 of facis for ALIM Camp decided to meet for ifthor and 2 of us brought along out other half. Hahahah!
Supposed to meet at 6pm at Paya Lebar but S came to my place from Al-Falah bcause he wanted to give me a bag and kurma. Hahahaha punya banyak kurma dia kasi. Thanksssss love😘. Had to settle a few errands before keluar so he had to wait outside because my parents not at home and Mok masih belum mandi. Walked to CC to take some form but ended up takde. & he wanted to surprise me with his new haircut. HAHAHAHAH! Kawan-kawan dia shave his hair botak, cute lerhhhhh! Kekeke!
Trained to Paya Lebar and let out something. The fact that whenever i tweet emo emo stuff, our friends would always thought kita dua tgh gaduh OR whenever i tweet something then S may not be the first to know. So mcm ended up others knows first than him (especially the important things). Hahahah actually both of us agree there is no issue to this but our friends may ended up salah sangka and go to him to ask him. Perks of having the same group of friends. Hahahah! Reached Paya Lebar and met the rest. Baru pkol 6.18pm and we were already sitting at the tempat makan. Decided to order seafood instead of individual food. Pilih punya pilih total $117. Hahahah! But alhamdulilah super kenyang seh. Bila dah azan, Rizal asked S to give a few of the kurma to orang sebelah, belakang and a few more. Hahahah! So cute luh!
Then, when eating, i was focusing on peeling my prawns and Zhaf was like why is S staring at me instead of helping me to peel? NYAHAHAH! I DIDNT REALISE HE STARED AT ME. He told me he was mesmerized by my "focused" loook. HAHAHAHAHA! biasa jugak comel agaknya. & Rizal paid for the food. Alhamdulilah, may Allah bless him.

Went to Mahgrib at Wak Tanjong Moswue. We all were contemplating nak terawih or not. So Zhaf was the one who had to make decision. If dia dtg mences, we wont terawih, otherwise, proceed to terawih. Heheh! Sooo, bila she went toilet and check, sekali dia dtg mences. So i had to mahgrib alone then meet the guys back outside masjid. Went to Bazaar. Jalan punya jalan but we didnt really but a lot. Tak tau nak beli apa actually. So bought some ice milk tea, pisang cheese, takoyaki and Farah bought fr us doughnuts at JCo earlier. So we went to this block punya rooftop or more like connected park and had a mini picnic there. Luckily ada sejadah portable utk dialas. Makan and laugh laugh there. So funneh luh. We played Charades and Heads up. One funney incidenr. When it was his turn to guess, there was this clue where the rest of them pointed at me. Guess whar he said???? "BEAUTIFUL" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA KEMBANG SEMINIT SEH!! HAHAHAHAHA! Okay dah deflated back. && Farah pulak, when her turn to guess the word "tree", she blur gila. We literally gave a clue pokok in english ape. She stunned and was like huhhh?? Zhaf literally had to show sign 1, 2, 3 in order for her to ckp "three". HAHAHAHAH EPIC GILA! Those selenga momentzz. Made our way back to SK and reached Compass ard 10.50pm. S wanted to send me back till my house but feel bad lerh. So i decided to wait fr 27 with him instead. He didnt have to send me home mcm kesian gyty then kena patah balik Tampines but he always insisted. Sweeet luh tuh. It feels good to see this side of him like people always see he merepek and gila gila and cant stop talking but when he starts to bubal sweet or action yg mcm make me awhhhh, mcm wow gytu. Heheh! Home sweet home ard 11.15pm. Alhamdulilah for yesterday.

Had tuition today and then straight to masjid for meeting. Dari pkol 8-11.05pm biasa jugaakkkk. Always laughing with their lame jokes ah really. Tak boleh tahan 🤣🤣🤣🤣. Bahar belanja us CBTL and it eas my first time drinking Hazelnut latte. Okay ah not bad. Balik je terus makan bcause i only breakfast with chicken pie tadi. Nakkkkk tidur now but mcm tak boleh sleep je.

I have been feeling mehhh since yesterday. Im not sensetive but yesterday incident made me urghhh whatever gytu. Okay, cita dia gini...

2 days ago, i texted Q bcause i have niat to help out for an event but tak confirm sbb i am also helping another organization in ramadhan. Then, he said the word "plsss". I was like okay takpe, will just help him. Then he told me yesterday night ada meeting and it would be good if i can come. I actually dah ada plan to terawih with bestfs but i thought that this briefing is kinda important so i asked bestfs to go ahead without me. Sekali... malam tuh, he texted me something like, alamak i need to get back to you, mcm dah ramai org pulak. I dont know but i jst feeel awful reading that text. Like, i aldy cancel on my bests to come for the briefing... then cancel my plan on that day bcause he wants me to help for this. But in the end, he said that? Tak tau but i feel abit sedih? Benda kecik padahal. Ishhh so kental ah!!

Then, he said no, he needs me. And he asked me to stay. Haishhh. Now i 50-50 nak tolong. Nasib ada D dekat situ. If not, i will really back out. I shouldnt feel this way, i know. But right now im feeling that. Malas nak balas whatsapp org for now.

I realise, lepas exam, i havent had time for myself. Been all out going around here and there that i barely breathing. Im not complaining, just that maybe i need a little space and time for myself, to do what i like?

Should i go window shop alone later? Or tengok wayang maybe?