So... Syaz did it again. On monday, after his class, he went home and tertidur all the way. He didnt text me that he have reached home and me being me, being too caring and concern, was super worry about him. Thought that he sesat or something bad has happened but dia sedap tgh tidur. HAHAHAHAHAHA! I was pissed. Really, bcause it wasnt the first time. Yes, benda kecik je i knw tapi i jst curious ah, susah sgt ke nak leave me a text bila dah masuk rumah? He said he was charging his phone and dia KO, pls luh your phone baru je seh and takkan terus 0% kan? Then tues dia text, i gave one word reply but he said he did acknowledge my feeling but he jst acted normal asking me question mcm biasa. I feel more annoyed as if he was being oblivious with my feelings. Nampak terang terang i tgh tak annoyed but he biarkan je. Then tadi baru nak ask why all. I think i expect too much from him ah. And i need to care lesser. Dia dah besar pun, dia tau jaga diri.

& my perasaan tak penting pun. I always feel the need to validate my own feelings of unhappiness. Like i need others to tell me is okai to feel this way or i need assurance. If not i would deny that feeling that i feel. And Syaz think mcm my feeling ni over gytu. Because benda kecik je pun. Takpeluh, mungkin takde org pun kisah how i feel. Dia masih boleh ckp benda ni will happen again. I jst feel uhhhh!! Susahnya nak text me bila dah sampai rumah like boleh tertidur! Bukan suruh dia text me the whole day seh. Small favour of informing me bila dah sampai rumah but to him, susah. Okai fine luh, jst do whatever you want. I pun dah malas nak terlalu ambik berat sgt. Dia dah besar pandai jaga diri pun. 😞